Thursday, January 14, 2010

search ponder pray

sooo i have some super exciting news!!
i [finally] finished emptying my very last box from the move!
it's been sitting in the corner between my bookcase and dresser for months, and now i have three extra feet of dancing space in my bedroom...awesomespice!!

and that's not the best part...

you know how when you're deep cleaning, you prettymuchalmost always end up finding something that makes your whole day?
it was like that for me when i was emptying out that bottomless pit earlier today.
i found something special amidst the pile of old textbooks, papers, and pens.


my very first copy of the Book of Mormon.
it was given to me at a time when i was struggling with my faith, questioning everything i wanted to believe in.
a gift from a friend.
Christmas 2005.

i smiled as i held the small paperback book in my hands again. and i remembered...
+ struggling with the grammar and the pronunciation as i read those pages for the first time...[nephi='ne-fE]
+ hiding the book in my underwear drawer, afraid of what my parents might think of it, and staying up late after everyone else was in bed to read more...[oh-so-rebellious!]

most of all, i remembered the peace i felt whenever i read this book...
and i still feel that same peace when i read this book today.

The Book of Mormon: Another Testament of Christ.
it's true.
i know it with all of my <3.

1 comment:

Jesse B. Hannah said...

I know you won't see this until you get back, but I knew you had posted this at some point so I went browsing back through your blog for it, and it made me smile so much to read it again. :) I'm so glad that I gave you that Book of Mormon all those years ago, and I can't imagine what things would be like now if I hadn't. It's been such a blessing to me to see the happiness that it's brought into your life, even after all that's happened since then, and I can't wait to see how it continues to inspire and guide you after your mission…and I hope to find myself to be a part of that. :)